Tuesday, February 2

Got this from a friend, and I find it very unsubtle. Give it some thought, I feel guilty for some instances. But then again, everything happens for a reason, don't they?

Coming to the topic of friends, when I was in primary school, I understood that we are still young and childish and hence no one is to be blamed for anything unhappiness as we're all young and innocent and stupid. When I was in secondary school I thought things would be better. Well, it did to certain extend. So when I entered the poly I thought everyone were adults and were able to tell what's right and wrong but I guess I was wrong?

I no longer feel the need to be attached to any friends cause it's just not worth it. It's not worth my efforts and time at all. I don't see a need of risking myself being used and dumped aside when that so called friend do not need your companion. Let's face it, when she's attached, she'd stick with her bf and only look for her friends when her bf isn't around. When they broke up, she said she needed her friends to have faith in her and she needed support from her friends to help her move on. But what's happening? I've always believed that if there is a will there will be a way to solve anything. But I guess from the start the will was never there. And what about needing her friends? Well, she managed to get into another group of friends and dumped those who have always been there for her. And don't come telling people it's because you weren't invited to go for break etc. Since when was there even an invitation? It has always been a norm.

Seriously, I see everything as a child's play. And it's to a point whereby I don't even want to bother about anything anymore. Like I've said before. I'm done. But just when I've decided to wash my hands off everything, I'll hear of accusations on us that you've made. I've thought of confronting and trash everything out with you. But honestly, is there even a point anymore? If you'd really get anything, you'd have gotten it months ago.

I swear it would be the last time. To me, I'd rather see it as I've never had you as a friend but rather you're just a classmate all along, and I don't plan to make things better as I'm tired of being initiative.